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Yes, it's been a long while since I have posted. And no, I haven't given up blogging for Lent, although the idea might be appealing. I wrote this post on Monday the 18th, but didn't publish until today, Sunday the 24th. I really have been trying to decide if I'm blogging because I'm writing, or if I'm writing because of my blog. Years ago, when I got into scrapbooking (I got back out quickly), I found myself taking pictures so that I could scrapbook, which seemed backwards. I should have been scrapbooking because I took pictures. So I don't want the blog to be the thing that drives the writing. Instead, the writing should drive the blog. Yes, I've become too philosophical about it. Maybe the real reason that I haven't posted is because I have been a bit busy cleaning out drawers and closets at my parent's house. We are moving Mom and Dad closer to us, which is turning out to be a good decision, because my mother continues to have operations to amputate her limbs. She is having another amputation tomorrow, and they will also be re-amputating her other leg, which sounds impossible but basically means that they will be removing more of the leg. So in the midst of the surgeries and the recovery and adjusting to a completely new way of living, we have also been taking a few jaunts down Memory Lane.
The passing of time is mysterious. Sometimes it feels like life is creeping along, and sometimes we turn around and wonder where time went. As we prepare for the move, we've found old photos that I had never seen. They were stuffed in a chest and dresser, destined for obscurity - probably the dumpster - and so we decided to go through them with "toss" and "keep" bags. I found the photos in plastic bags, envelopes, thrown loosely in small boxes. And when you're cleaning out drawers and closets that contain old photos, there is just no good way to do it quickly. It takes time to sit and soak in the time and place and moment when the photo was taken. As I looked through all these photos, I was taken back to sights and smells and sounds that I thought were gone. And I saw faces that had faded from memory. My Aunt Mary's image had become a blur, and suddenly there she was in a blue dress with pearl clip-on earrings. And even my own childhood face had been a little lost with the passing of time. Did I really wear sponge rollers as I pedaled around the neighborhood on my bike? I didn't remember that. And was there really an era where young mothers wore ponchos and headscarves...on vacation??? There was my mother staring out from the faded images of the old photos...young, healthy, with two legs and her whole life in front of her. She has fleeting moments of wanting to give up these days, but we tell her that she can't because we need her and because life can go on without legs, and because she is still the same person regardless of what parts of her body are removed. As I look at the pictures, I wonder if my words sound empty to her. As she told me last night, "this isn't happening to YOU, it's happening to ME." And she is right. It is her body, and I can't feel what she is feeling. So all I could say to her was, "Let's just take it one day at a time...one moment at a time." So now, the passing of time seems to be creeping along because we aren't going to allow ourselves to look too far ahead these days. Just a day - a moment at a time. But we're doing it together. We're still making memories even though we have aged and changed since the old photos were taken.
Time passes. Life goes on. And God has brought us to this place because there is still life to live and so we will live it. It makes me realize that I simply must start taking more photos of these days. Because time has a habit of slipping away.

